~43~ Dream HOME

• Now, I know my DREAM HOME. Looking at my vision board or DREAM board, my home is full of SPACE, sunshine and blue sky, clean air and blossoms of flowers, space for me, family and friends, lovely and handful kitchen, simple wardrobe and storage, bedrooms and bathrooms, no main gate, no clock, no TV, no newspaper either. Simple yet basic life that back to nature, next to the riverside and jungle walk. So far, I could not find any place like this in KL yet. After looking at the photos posted by KL Fong and Sara in facebook, it inspires me to build my own HOME. Most photos are download from SekSan at their Serendah project.
• It is just NICE for me, my SWEET HOME and a PERFECT fit.
• Now, I am enroll and attract to my dream home and will look forward to invest on a piece of land that near to the riverside and jungle walk. I am creating the path for my Sweet Home.

~40~ 10 Things Of What I STOP Doing

I have been dealing with my own thoughts that leading me no where. Sick and tired of it. Of course, they are all my dramas and past thoughts. I called up to Reza and shared with him about it, he suggested me to list down the 10 things, which I'm going to commit on STOP doing. I have just completed the 9th and 10th. Our conversation is about 6 weeks ago, on 12th of May, a day after Mothers' Day. The listing from number 1-8 has shown results after these 6 weeks. It was a BIG realisation on how HARD I treated myself.

My Stop Doing List

1. STOP jumping into conclusion
2. STOP blaming myself
3. STOP justifying
4. STOP beating myself up
5. STOP drama, such as of making my body sick or aching
6. STOP holding back to intuitions
7. STOP over responsibility on others
8. STOP taking caffeine as life's boaster
9. STOP procrastinate
10. STOP on EGO

Be grateful in truth. Seeing everything as IT IS.

~36~ Class 3B3

• Wow, it has been about 5 weeks I stop scribble on my blog. Time flies!!!
• In fact, I had created a new blog called class3B3.blogspot.com on the 11th April 08. My intention of creating Class 3B3 is to share my knowledge and experiences in Fashion Merchandising and Retailing during my practice in 1997 to 2004. Ever since I committed myself in lecturing at Malaysian Institute Of Arts, MIA since April, the activities took a bigger space in my life.
• Even though the lecturing only takes me 2 hours in a week, the class has 15 people. Lots of efforts and thoughts have been put into the effectiveness of learning process. It includes the design of context and content, games simulation, debriefs, music, sitting arrangement, props and examples that appeal real and relevant for the participants and actively encourage them to participate fully in every sessions. I hope they could receive and retain the experiences. It is not an easy job. However, I just love the process of using Excellerated Learning rather than the tradisonal way of academy teaching. I learned so much about myself on earn the rigths to share, ego, frustrations, anger, and how hard I beat myself up when results did not show up as the way I want it to be. It enhance my thinking process, in another word, I am highly perturbed. I love it so much and highly engage with the process.
• The other thing I love is, being supported by close friends around me, they are Reza, Saba, Jana, Foo, Kitty, Lee and Ms Lai in sharing their experiences that relevant to my lecturing. Those sharing includes presentation skills, questioning technique, games design, content design and seeing possibilities in many many ways. It enrich my thoughts and the way I deliver my knowledge. Besides, it accelerated my creativity when I share my concern with them. Every time when I ask, I got another new question and follow by another question. This is also why I love Reza so much, he hardly give me answer, I got to think through it myself. This is how I grow.
• So much perturbations going on, until I found out that I speak very very less unless there is a need to talk. Most of the time I am creating, relating and note my creations on papers.

~35~ Add VALUE

Add VALUE - the key to doing MORE with LESS. It make a different in personal and business success. I have been thinking through about ADD VALUE all this while ever since my involvement in biz. I brought the topic up again during my discussion with Reza few days back. He suggested me to think about, what I have added value in the past and what I can add value now. Just only this, perturbation has been going on.

The PAST

I recalled my autograph during my secondary graduation on what friends shared about me. I found something in common that they shared about me is they love my cheerfulness, spontaneous and my home make food that I had shared with them. I made this available to my close friend and family members.

NOW

What I have created in my blog is to add value to others on life transformation "tool box", something that have made a better me. I am thinking of something that could make a better YOU, after reading my blog.

One of the possibilities that I could think of is providing a platform in blogger for Personal Development Programs Reviews; be it seminars, CDs, VCDs, DVDs, books etc... that a person has gone through and be able to share his satisfaction level rating from 1 STAR to 5 STAR.

The Rule Of Reviews

• Sharing with INTEGRITY, ones must have ate the Assam Laksa before sharing the taste of it.
• WIN/WIN for everyone, create an intention for growth to all parties.
• Create empowerment from RESPONSIBILITY rather than Justifying, Blaming or Denying.
• Satisfaction level rating from minimum 1 STAR to 5 STAR.
• Evaluation of satisfaction from all aspects including

1. Instructor's experience whether he has earned the RIGHT to share
2. Methodology, what method of sharing has been used? Forum, Games simulations, etc...
3. Ethic of conduct
4. Perceived Value vs Receive Value (Me as a participant)
5. Level of interaction
6. Level of learning, understanding and awareness (what I could remember until NOW)
7. Program Content vs Title of the program
8. Learning Objective vs Outcome
9. Logistic support
10. Continuous learning platform for growth, such as follow up series, lifetime reviews
11. Platform for networking
12. Level of transformation (I have learned from the program, take actions and make changes in my life)

I'm looking into MORE, your comments is welcome.

~24~ FREEDOM

• My Freedom start by realising how I justify myself on self VALUE, I have got it during my releasing with Heiko and Selina, followed by the workshop of introduction to "Mastery" yesterday by Victor. It involves EGO, Pride, Envy, Jealousy, Conflict, Over Responsible, self Judgement, looking up to be Acknowledge, having Approval and Recognition from others BADLY.

• All these emotions lead me to a break through of SELF Value and I am still searching deeper.
  
• Happy searching !

~23~ MIRACLE

~Life itself already a MIRACLE, LIFE is MIRACLE~

Open your eyes and look into your palm, how many people on earth having the same palm as you have?

The answer is : NONE.

• It is ONLY ME on earth that having that palm and no one else. I am unique and individualistic. I am who I am. I do not need to or want to be who I am, I just BE, I am.
• I am inviting you to perturbate yourself on Claim The Right vs Earn The Right. Rather than saying I Need To (HAVE), say I Want To (DO), why don't say I Am (BE).
• Create INTENTION, knowing it is ALREADY in the being. It is always READY and always there.

I realised it yesterday during my present in "Mastery" session and I am posting my sharing.

Watch movie, <The Miracle Man - Morris Goodman>

~16~ RESPONSIBLE

My Empowerment start HERE, and I just got the essence of RESPONSIBLE, while driving to my office. Knowing I have been living below the line and short changing myself all this while is a GREAT break through. All my POWER lies within me.

~13~ PAIN and Suffering

Article 87 ~ Pain & Suffering. A version to pain is really a misplaced aversion to suffering. Ordinarily we do not make a distinstion between PAIN and SUFFERING, but there are very important differences between them. Pain is a natural part of the experience of life. Suffering is one of many possible responses to pain. Suffering can come out either physical or emotional pain. It involves our thoughts and emotions and how they frame the MEANING of our experiences. Suffering, too, is perfectly natural. In fact the human condition is often spoken of as inevitable suffering. Written and shared by Jon Kabat-Zinn.

I got this book from Buddha temple in Brickfield while looking for Steve Loo, a friend of mine. Somehow this book caught my attention and I picked it up from the shelf. I brought this book along to my labour room and this article appeared to me while I was reading it in my labour of Adrian in 27th April 07. Contractions just started, very mile. It was such an amazing journey. As I went through the pain of contractions and realise that pain is pain and suffer is suffer. They are independent. Pain is just a sensation and the suffering is another emotion that I choose to associate with the pain, if I choose to do so. Otherwise pain will not have suffer, AT ALL. It was an awareness I had at that point of time, and it became a big AH HA... for me to see emotions independently.

~Your PAIN is not YOU~

~11~ Book Review By Danic Pheh

Hi Prisca, you are welcome to share it on your blog with others. I am glad to have other people benefit from it. Thank you for using yor blog as a platform to share it. Let me know on how others feedback on it so I can improve myself the next time I write another review. Cheers from Danic Pheh ~ Globe Success Learning Sdn. Bhd.

Hi friends! This is a review on one my the greatest book I have laid my eyes on getting out of the box by Arbinger Institute. This book is recomended by Dom during my Business School in Sep 07.

Imagine you are angry. What do you see of others?

• Do they seem like objects to you where they seem less important to yourself, where they deserve to be punished?
• Do you want to know what got you angry in the first place?
• Why is your child or spouse just could do nothing right?
• Why do you get under the line of Responsibility?

• Through this great read, I became clearer as I understand why do I gounder the RESPONSIBILITY line and stay there. I also understood the effects if i stay under the line, such as inviting others to liveunder the line with me. It's a negative effect that is transferred. Thus, I understood how can I transmit positive energy instead, how I can change it to a positive energy.
• One method I learned to go above the line is to see others as PEOPLE. Well, how do I see other as people? Feeling a desire for them, feel and understand them and relate to the mask I know that everyone has comparable legitimate hopes and dreams inlife. Feeling others from their point of view, values and experience.
• In order to stay above the line more frequently, I have learn to take action when a choice or feeling to serve others arises in my thought. This action will actually keep me stay above the line. If there is delay, the mind is able to justify and blame for my inactions. False images will be created in the mind. We know the existence of blaming and justifying whereby this book gave me a clearer view on how blameand justification occurs, which in turn gave me the power to change.

~CLARITY LEADS TO POWER~

~10~ INVITING Silence

I become the detached observer
And watch
My thoughts, with lives of their own
Flash and flutter
Rise and fall
Come and go
So many butterflies outside my window

I smile
And I slow my thoughts
To rest
Kindly and patiently
I calm them all
To rest

Motionless, effortless, all quiet
A great and peaceful ocean
Home to mysteries and treasure
At voiceless rest beneath the sea

With silent contemplation
And inner awareness
The mind clears its way
I enter the vastness
And drift beneath its gentle surface
I slow strong current of deeper self
Currents of serenity
Currents of love
Currents of joy
Currents of bliss

I am suddenly free
Free from a noisy mind
Free from a warring brain
Free to embrace the beauty of all life
Free to connect
With my pure spirit
To know only peace and kindness
Love and joy
A moment of eternal freedom

Liberated by confused mind
The deepest part of me
Emerges from within
And with the small and subtle gentle touches
Silence speaks to me

~Poems Of Awakening~ By Bhante Y. Wimala -Sri Langka

~3~ Running Away

There are obvious pain on my right heel and back muscles ever since I committed my job in “Warrior Within” last Oct. I just could not figure out why, until recently…

I found myself very shadow and not PRESENT in everything and everywhere. Annie highlight to me that I was very shadow ever since Nov 07. I caught myself running away from what I have committed, and it is the most obvious pattern I could see myself doing frequently NOW. The MORE I am running away, the more painful is my physical body. I see lots of holding backs on my responsibilities, angry, blaming, justifying about not utilizing the knowledge that I have learned all this while, angry and tired about trying to prove to people around me that I am capable in handling my work, at the same time I am not satisfying and not willing to move forward. I see me fall back in life and feeling the incompletion of some events in the past during my childhood. I am not willing to let go “something” and this “something” is not helping me at all in EMPOWERMENT.

I am running away from people, people that I know and people that I don’t know. I truly felt black-out during my shopping yesterday and I ran away quickly from the supermarket. In reality, I am running away from myself.

Now is 4pm on 27 Dec, I am asking a friend, Anthony to support me and to be with me on my drama at 4.15pm. I am letting go another past events.

I FACE myself, so be it.

~1~ A Journey Through Life

Finally, I decided to create a SPACE for myself and for others.

A SPACE to add value, A SPACE to share life transformations.

A SPACE for Friendship
The essences for FRIENDSHIP is Love, Joy, Courage, Trust, Smile, Hugs, Care, Warm, Cheers, Give and Receive, Share...

A SPACE for Mastery
The essences for MASTERY is Responsibility, Awareness, Clarity, Growth, Corrections, Truth, Passion, Integrity, Empowerment, Peace, Synergy...

A SPACE to share what I love to share. This will be a SPACE for journey through LIFE.