There are obvious pain on my right heel and back muscles ever since I committed my job in “Warrior Within” last Oct. I just could not figure out why, until recently…
I found myself very shadow and not PRESENT in everything and everywhere. Annie highlight to me that I was very shadow ever since Nov 07. I caught myself running away from what I have committed, and it is the most obvious pattern I could see myself doing frequently NOW. The MORE I am running away, the more painful is my physical body. I see lots of holding backs on my responsibilities, angry, blaming, justifying about not utilizing the knowledge that I have learned all this while, angry and tired about trying to prove to people around me that I am capable in handling my work, at the same time I am not satisfying and not willing to move forward. I see me fall back in life and feeling the incompletion of some events in the past during my childhood. I am not willing to let go “something” and this “something” is not helping me at all in EMPOWERMENT.
I am running away from people, people that I know and people that I don’t know. I truly felt black-out during my shopping yesterday and I ran away quickly from the supermarket. In reality, I am running away from myself.
Now is 4pm on 27 Dec, I am asking a friend, Anthony to support me and to be with me on my drama at 4.15pm. I am letting go another past events.
I FACE myself, so be it.
I found myself very shadow and not PRESENT in everything and everywhere. Annie highlight to me that I was very shadow ever since Nov 07. I caught myself running away from what I have committed, and it is the most obvious pattern I could see myself doing frequently NOW. The MORE I am running away, the more painful is my physical body. I see lots of holding backs on my responsibilities, angry, blaming, justifying about not utilizing the knowledge that I have learned all this while, angry and tired about trying to prove to people around me that I am capable in handling my work, at the same time I am not satisfying and not willing to move forward. I see me fall back in life and feeling the incompletion of some events in the past during my childhood. I am not willing to let go “something” and this “something” is not helping me at all in EMPOWERMENT.
I am running away from people, people that I know and people that I don’t know. I truly felt black-out during my shopping yesterday and I ran away quickly from the supermarket. In reality, I am running away from myself.
Now is 4pm on 27 Dec, I am asking a friend, Anthony to support me and to be with me on my drama at 4.15pm. I am letting go another past events.
I FACE myself, so be it.
